My mental is seriously wrong?

these phases doesnt have to take too long. When there is a voice inside your head you speak with it as you speak. Just let it go as if you would talk to a real person..make jokes, dare them, shout if you want and break a couple of things when they piss you off..see where your emotions are taking you. observe yourself. it is always about silly things and things that dont make sense. but if you observe yourself you will see how they connect.